🎄 Episode 20: Holiday Special – Carl Makes Eggnog, We Face Our Family Trauma, and a Ghost Sings Mariah Carey

Season Finale – 

It began the way all great catastrophes do: with eggnog and unspoken emotional wounds.

Carl—yes, that Carl, the monocled cactus and accidental life coach—decided that our healing journey needed a festive touch. “We cannot complete the cycle of spiritual rebirth,” he said, swirling cinnamon into a pot like some prickly Gordon Ramsay, “without addressing the true initiator of chaos: the holiday season.”

His plan? A Yuletide Healing Bonanza™. There would be eggnog. There would be family flashbacks. There would be ghosts. And, for reasons I didn’t understand until much later, there would be a glittering karaoke machine that only played Mariah Carey’s "All I Want for Christmas Is You" on loop.

We were not okay.

Phase One: Eggnog and Emotional Exposure

Carl’s eggnog was vegan, boozy, and infused with “ancestral spice.” I didn’t know what that meant, but it made my third eye sweat. Within ten minutes, I could feel memories of my mother’s passive-aggressive gift tags (“To: You, From: The One Who Does Everything”) bubbling to the surface. Carl passed me a cookie shaped like a broken heart. “It’s almond,” he whispered. “Like your childhood resilience.”

I nodded. I was already spiraling.

The room was decked in chaotic décor that hinted at unresolved trauma: wreaths made of expired therapy bills, mistletoe dangling from burned bridges, and a nativity set where baby Jesus was replaced with a mirror labeled “Your Inner Child.”

Carl had invited guests—mostly sentient objects and emotionally ambiguous spirits from previous episodes. The rubber duck from the ego-death bathtub floated silently in spiked punch. Gregory the tap-dancing toad played bongos. My kaleidoscopic therapy kale was serving hors d’oeuvres.

In a corner, a group of self-help books staged a judgmental intervention around the Christmas tree. One of them wore a tiny Santa hat and kept muttering, “Chapter Three was ignored again, wasn’t it?”

I couldn’t answer. I was already curled under the existential garland.

Phase Two: The Ghost of Christmas Angst

At precisely 11:11 p.m., the fireplace flickered, then belched out an impressive cloud of peppermint-scented fog. From it emerged the Ghost of Christmas Angst, wearing tinsel, regret, and a shimmering shawl of seasonal despair. She floated just above the snack table, moaning softly in the key of unresolved tension.

“Whyyy did your uncle bring up politics at dinner?” she whispered toward no one and everyone. “Who invited shame to the potluck again?”

The room went still.

Even Carl paused, monocle fogged and tiny Santa hat askew. “She’s early,” he murmured. “Perfect.”

The ghost sang “Silent Night” in a minor key, locking eyes with each of us as if daring us to remember what happened in 2004. Then she transitioned—without warning—into Mariah Carey’s iconic holiday anthem. Her voice was haunting, mournful, and oddly empowering.

“All I want for Christmas… is YOUUUU—to finally process your generational grief!”

We clapped. We sobbed. Carl handed out tissues and small cards that read, “This breakdown is part of the ceremony.”

Phase Three: Dysfunctional Family Role-Play (with Puppets)

Carl then facilitated “Ritualized Confrontation Hour,” which involved shadow puppets reenacting our worst holiday moments. Mine featured a paper cut-out of my father sighing loudly at gifts he didn’t like, while a sock puppet version of me tried to perform a violin solo with a candy cane.

“This is hilarious,” Carl noted, taking notes. “And spiritually raw.”

One of the puppets began heckling me.

“That’s just your inner critic,” Carl said. “Let it yell. It’s earned this.”

A plush nutcracker seated nearby burst into tears.

We took a break for cranberry meditation, where we each chewed one dried cranberry per year of emotional baggage. I nearly dislocated my jaw.

Phase Four: The Gift Exchange That Wasn’t

In what was perhaps the boldest portion of the night, Carl announced a “non-material gift exchange.” We were to stand in a circle and give each other intangible offerings: forgiveness, silence, space, awkward but necessary eye contact.

When it was my turn, I offered my ghost of an ex the ability to forget my last voicemail. In return, I received the memory of being loved unconditionally… for five minutes. It was beautiful and immediately suspicious.

Carl smiled. “Now you understand seasonal vulnerability. Let’s pour more eggnog.”

The blender—possessed once again by my emotional patterning—whirred ominously in the background.

Phase Five: Karaoke and Catastrophe

Eventually, all things lead to karaoke. We knew this. Carl queued up the only song available, and we each took turns performing our version of holiday grief.

The rubber duck did a freestyle rap. Gregory the toad tap-danced interpretively. I sang directly into the cheese tray, weeping.

Carl’s rendition was… unexpected. He sang it slowly, like a torch song from a noir film. “I don’t want a lot for Christmas,” he drawled. “Just for you to stop reenacting your trauma at family gatherings.”

It brought the house down. And then, as if on cue, the Christmas tree burst into flames—not real flames, but metaphorical ones. Carl had pre-installed holographic fire to symbolize “burning away our seasonal codependency.”

The rubber duck applauded. “Art,” it whispered.

Phase Six: Midnight Mistletoe Truce

As the clock struck midnight, Carl handed each of us a miniature snow globe. Inside mine was a tiny version of my 8-year-old self giving side-eye to Santa.

“Close it,” Carl said, “and let this moment be your seasonal boundary.”

I shook mine until it blizzarded.

Then we stood beneath the mistletoe, not to kiss, but to name what we were finally ready to release: guilt, guilt, fear of group chats, rage about board games, and that one aunt who always asked, “Still single?”

The ghost of Christmas Angst gave us all a thumbs-up before fading into the decorative fog, singing one final line:

“And I—ee-I—eee—I will always resent...holiday potlucks.”

Carl handed out tiny snowflake pins. “You did it,” he said. “You survived. You confronted. You emotionally exfoliated.”

The nutcracker wiped his eyes and whispered, “Merry Crisis, everyone.”

And for the first time in years, I actually felt it: a little peace. Or maybe that was just the eggnog kicking in.

Either way, it was the most healing holiday disaster of my life.

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